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Bharati Challa's avatar

Actually you absolutely must envy my boarding school experience! Best years of my life. Where else would a teenager after the 2000s have been allowed to live an analog existence? Life sang in a clearer pitch. There's little mental noise, and you have no option but to make friends for life too. It was also a large beautiful valley that was all ours to explore. Pretty much a dream, tbh.

Where did you grow up? Did you enjoy the 'analog existence', or did you mean something else?

The letters, yes, I re-read them sometimes. Not too often because the effect isn't so visceral then (diminishing marginal returns or whatever lol).

Of course, the memories come tumbling back when I read them, and so does the longing. A Blueprint for Life from that period + place has been branded so deep into my brain that I know the rest of my life I will just spend chasing that feeling. That's my fatal flaw, I guess - that I'm afflicted with the dis-ease and restlessness that comes from having felt a fundamental kindness someplace and assuming that that is the default state of the world. Maybe you know what I'm speaking of?

I've really digressed, but I also haven't articulated myself like this in a while, so I will not delete this haha. I'm reminded of some note you'd posted a while ago when you were considering what the ideal response length + tone (?) is for online conversations (??) - I clearly do not know, either.

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Maria Rustica's avatar

Thank you for the shoutout, Adhithya.

Interesting read, I love letters about letters. Maybe you should make one more of these.

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